January 15, 2014

Hey guys, sorry about not posting yesterday, I was sick and I had this massive headache and I was all stressed out about moving out and job situations, basically I was on my man period. But all that is over now I’m completely fine, besides the headache that’s still there but it’s okay nothing coffee and pain pills can’t fix. Okay so now down to business, my day to day life. First I woke up, showered, messaged my girlfriend and then took off on my sneakers on my way to school. Notice how I left out how I did my hair, I didn’t today, I just ran my hands through my hair put it back and was like, yup it’s gonna be one of these days. Well when I got to school my friend drove by and he let me sit in his car until the bus came and got us, which was nice well better compared to sitting in the school not knowing what to talk about and who to talk to. Anyways votech was, well not that bad but considering it was one of my last day I was happy but at the same time, not. I have made friends in that class, but I will be really happy that I will be out of the class that I hate more than life its self. After that I went back to my home school and did home school things. Then home for about 30 minutes then to work. I got picked up by a work friend, which scared me because he got really close to me and I had no idea who it was, but after telling him to fuck off I realized who it was. I did get to see his baby, which is just the cutest thing ever and just she likes me and I get to make little noises to her and she laughs and just shes so awwhhh :). Work wasn’t so bad, it wasn’t so busy, and when it did get a little busy, I got help from the manager which was good. After work I sat in my chair, had coffee, and jammed to music. I talked to a girl that I know about these crystal necklaces that she made and was selling, I really like them and I want one so badly. I’ve always liked necklaces but I can never keep them nice and ya know, not broken. I think the problem is I cant treat them like I treat my wristbands. I never take off my wrist bands, even when I shower, and when I do have a necklace I never take it off, so when I do get the one I ordered off amazon (which is the cutest squid) ill have to take it off when I shower. Which does suck but I think I could handle it. I’m part of this social media group and I thought it would be a good place to make new internet friends, well that has been a mistake up until today. There is this girl that seems, well that is so far, pretty interesting, and not a whore, or an attention whore. I’m so happy about this. Is that pathetic? Oh well. Then I had a group message with my votech friends and my girlfriend. Which got out of hand really fast. After that my night was normal for once.

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January 13, 2014

Hello guys, everyone’s day going okay? Well I really hope so because mine has not been the best. But lets start at the beginning. Well first I woke up. I didn’t shower because I’m starting to shower at nights now at about midnight so I can straighten my hair in the morning. After I woke up in the morning I did my hair, school was good, votec was hard, I had exams today, this was the first time in almost two years that I took an exam. I’ve forgotten how hard they are and how much I hate them. Then normal school was okay, got a lot of work done in my online class, three weeks into it and already 50% done, I’m very proud of my self. Self pride, going to hell, yippee. After school was when my day started to go bad, when I got home I had gotten a message from my girlfriend that she had to give her computer charger back to her friend, and I had not known that she was borrowing something that important, because if I would have known this I would have bought her one a while ago. The worst part about it was, her computer is the only way we can talk to each other when were not face to face. So she was freaked out, so was I. I could not imagine not talking to her everyday, I don’t know what I would do with my day. So when I messaged her she explained it to me. I told her to look one up on amazon and no matter the price I was gonna get her one that was going to be shipped and delivered next day. Well the one she found was eight dollars and with the next day shipping it was about 30 dollars. It was actually not that expensive. That’t not the point though. The thought of not knowing when I could talk to her is, unimaginable. But the problem is fixed so I’ve calmed down now and me and her are perfectly okay. Which is good. Then it was time for work. So after I bought the card to bye the charger I walked into work and clocked in at 3:30 I found out that I was gonna be the only one in the kitchen, and corporate was gonna be there, which is the worst time to always be at work. Your shirt has to be tucked in, name tag, you guys know, the whole nine yards. With her being there, its just makes work so stress full, you guys may not know but there are a lot of little things that go into fast food. And to keep doing them in between orders is sometimes really impossible. But I made it through it. When she had left I still had about two hours to keep working and do the dishes for my closers. They are so lucky that I love them, because if I didn’t I wouldn’t do all those dishes for them without being asked or told to. After work I came home and jammed out to music, like most nights, but because I have free time I played Minecraft with my friend. It was so great we lagged out the game. I guess if you spawn way to many mobs the game just shuts down, and my ps3 was hooter then hell. Then I Skyped with a friend and after that my girlfriend. So even though today did suck, it did have a happy ending.

Thank you for reading guys I love you all.

January 12, 2014

Hello guys, how are you today? I hope good. Well shall we get to it? My day was good. I woke up to my Aunt being here and my cousin. It was good that my Aunt was here, it is here birthday today so i got to wish her happy birthday, half asleep that is. My cousin was here so she could do some school work on the computer, I do miss my cousins. I wish we could all spend more time together but with work and school, its hard to fit people into my life, it’s not like how it use to be. But I guess that is what happens with time, things start to fall out of your life, it is sad but we still need to move on. They are family so they wont completely fade out of my life. Fingers crossed knock on wood. Then after they left to go back home my father came to pick up my little brother for the week. Its split custody between him and my mother, one week at her house and the next at my fathers and back and forth like that. Then I showered, got dressed, and my mother informed me that I was getting my futon frame. I was really excited. Unloading it was easy, very light, easy to put together, but when i was twisting the nut on the screw thingy (I don’t know tools haha), I believe a piece of the wood took some of my thumb nail near the edge of the thumb and chipped it off and went underneath the nail its self. Which hurts to hit the enter button on my keyboard, so writing this kind of sucks at the moment. Yes I’m that big of a baby. But I still got it put together and it was so easy to assemble and doesn’t take up that much space so moving it to the apartment wont be that hard. After that I played a League of Legends game and kicked major ass. I got 6 kills and 2 deaths. We just destroyed them and made one of the guys leave the game. So by the end of the game it was a 5 v 4. So happy. Then I Skyped with a friend for a little while messaging my girlfriend. During this I did my hair and what not and took off for work at about 2:30. I’m getting happier while walking to work, the sidewalks are getting better to walk on, because most places around here don’t shovel there sidewalks, one place that owns at least a block of sidewalk, doesn’t shovel any of it, and the snow has built up so far that it’s to my waist. Which i refuse to walk through so I walk in the road a little bit, it’s totally safe guys so don’t worry. Work today was good it was slow but we got some rushes so it was a good day, didn’t get as much cleaning done as i normally do on my Sundays but that’s okay. The only thing at work that upset me was my schedule for next week, I have no days off, but I do get almost 23 hours. Which is good because that is really close to the maximum amount of hours that I can have. But I went from having two days off and having almost the same amount of hours, then I went to having only one day off a week and having about 20 hours, and now it’s no days off and back up to really good hours, I like the hours and money, but no day to my self, granted all my shifts are like under 4 hours, but, maybe I just complain to much. My work mother gave me a ride home from work which was nice of here, one day ill give her all the gas money, but I know she wouldn’t except it. Damn her. When I got home I made my self some coffee and jammed to some music I have not listened to in ages. It was the first “screamo” band that I ever liked. And still to this day I know all the words to there old songs and I was sitting in my chair just jamming out. I’m scared to listen to there new stuff though, I really hope it’t not bad but I downloaded it, so ill have to wait and see. While I was on a social networking website, this group I’m apart of this poor boy was going through some problems, so I tried to do my best to help him and offer him help, even though I had no idea who he was, what he was about, not a damn thing. But the thing is you can only help people who want to be helped, but I have faith that he will be okay. Fingers crossed & knock on wood. Then I played another League game, this one was not so good. We got destroyed and within the first 5 minutes of the game our jungler left, because he couldn’t play the role that he wanted to play. Toxic players man. I also Skype with a friend who I haven’t talked with in quite some time. We talked about some pretty…messed up stuff that made me feel right at home. We always talk about stuff that I would never in a million years let my grandmother know about. So yeah just like old time. Talking about first person shooters with him is just the best thing ever. Talking about bull shit kills and things that are over powered are great. Then pretending that his kazoo and my trumpet horn this are bees, his was the baby and mine was the mommy, it was pretty grand. We also found out that you can’t physically inhale and burp at the same time. #themoreyouknow. The best part of Skypeing with him was that he blared some silly rap song, and he danced for me..it was so great. And at the end of the night I Skyped my girlfriend and we talked about just silly boy friend girl friend things. But over all the day and night was amazing.

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January 11, 2014

Hello again friends, well lets start from the start of the day. I woke up at about 11 a.m. or so and talked to my love on the internet for a while. She went to her mothers house and she confirmed that she can take the things she claimed when she moves out. Which makes things easier for March, most of it is dishware and some furniture. Which makes me so excited to move out and be on my own, I know I can do this. I know its going to be hard, but that’s life, I need to learn sometime right? Anyways, at about noon my little brother left to go to his girlfriends house today and at 1:30 or so my mother left to go to the store and then her boyfriends house for dinner and what not. And while I was showering I thought about how everyone is surrounded by there lovers all the time, and me and her are a ways apart, granted its only 15 or 20 miles or so (if that) but it’s still a distance with no car. I started to think even though I don’t see each other as often as “regular” couples I still love her so much, so it just confirms that everything will be okay. After the shower I straightened my hair which I missed so much how it looked so I’m going to start doing that more often. Then I practiced some songs for my YouTube channel which I am getting pumped for, I’m close to starting I’m just missing one more piece of equipment which I should be getting next pay check. Yay! After all that I walked half way to work when my friend that i use to work with had seen me and picked me up and gave me a ride, fortunately he was going to the same exact place. Work was good today, steady but not overly busy, got some dishes done for closer’s which I like to do, but some days theirs so many I’m just like “fuck this”. We also talked in Russian accents at work which is just the funniest thing, and we talked like Batman and Macho-Man Randy Savage, which hurt my throat so I couldn’t do it for long. I didn’t stay my whole shift though I left about an hour early, which was nice but I do need the money. After the walk home I started to message my girl and other people and I Skyped with a friend who i haven’t talked with in a few days so I’m happy to talk with him again. After that my girl and I started to Skype and watch the movie. But it was interrupted by her room mate coughing violently, so my girlfriend, being the amazing person that she is, helped her get ready to go to the hospital, the coughing was that serious, and I felt awful that I couldn’t help the situation. After she went to the hospital we watched a movie, yet another scary one. And we had to pause the movie so I could pee, I was that terrified of the movie, but I made it all the way through the movie. I will say though that this movie had a better story then the last one and was significantly more…messed up to say the least. Well that was my day.

Thank you for reading. 🙂

The Problem With Christianity

This makes complete sense, and i could not imagine why people would want to be Christians, even though I respect it I just don’t understand it.

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The problem with Christianity, is that it falls at a place where our greatest desires intersect with our greatest fears.

It seeks to provide answers in a way that leads to the stifling of our questions.

It presumes that we can know God, while at the same time telling us that when we don’t understand we should just have faith.

The problem with Christianity, is that it tells us we are bad. Flawed. Depraved. But that God loves us anyway. And because He loves us, we should strive to be perfect. And then it tells us what perfect is.

Perfection is living life on the straight and narrow. It is loving our neighbour as ourself. It is following a long list of rules that are supposed to make us better–that are supposed to prove our love for God. And this is the key to redemption–giving up all the things that…

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January 10, 2014

Today was my second day back after winter break (and many snow days) as a senior to my home school. I woke up, took a shower, got dressed, and went to my home school for about 10 minutes until the votech bus came and picked all us votechers up. Encase for those of you who are reading do not know what votech is, it is a a vocational school where young adults can go and learn a trade like auto body, welding, cosmetology, etc. The class I take is PC tech, where we learn about the in’s and outs of computers, it wasn’t my first choice but I wont get into that right now. But anyways the bad part about today at votech was that there was only four kids out of the eight that normally show up. But they were out on this class competition where a lot of schools get together to compete. But yesterday when the instructor to the class asked us who wasn’t going on the trip and when us four kids said that we were not going his response was, “ok”. That’s it, no there will be a sub, no you need to do this alternative assignment, nothing, just “ok”. So when the four of us waled to our class room today of course, the lights were out and the doors were locked. We all stood in the hallways for a moment and talked and laughed about how we had nothing to do today and what classroom we would even be staying in for the day. I thought it would be really great if they put all of us “nerdy” kids in like welding or….plastics. But eventually an adult walked by and asked us what we were doing and when we told her she showed us to the dean of students there who just did not believe a word we were saying. We told him that we had no idea if we had a substitute teacher, that we had no alternative assignment, and that we had no idea where to go for the day. He thought we all “missed” the bus and were just trying to get out of work. Which in all reality would not have been that bad of an idea, but if I wanted to get out school work, I wouldn’t go to school. So after all this happened we ended up in the programming room where we were told to do something productive, which for me meant to sleep, which I did do. After I got back home from school i took a good two hour nap, did dishes and went to work, which is a story in its self. We
were busy all day long but had both boards open for making sandwiches until 6 p.m., which never happens..ever. Then the walk home today was just the worst thing in the world. It was raining and dark and snowing and my pants were soaking wet all the way up to my knee, so not the best walk in the world. Then when I got home I played a game of League of Legends that lasted over an hour, and we should have won 15 minutes before we lost!!!!!! Damn toxic players :). Well after that my girlfriend and I watched a scary movie for our Skype date tonight, and it was amazing, even though I had to pee the whole way through it :). So that was my night.

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